When I watch a pornography film（1）

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When I watch a pornography film.


I know this is a disgusting topic, and will instigate gossips and unfavorable response. But I still make my mind to continue, because this is my responsibility to express my emotional distress and entanglement.


How to start then? I don’t initiate this topic deliberately, actually this idea, this eagerness of releasing of inner mind is striking me very accidentally. And just now I am full of utterance to make about this. The basic sentiment towards my illustration is “human being is too much addicted with sexual elements”. Nobody can be excepted from this negative thought. Watching a porn film will make your adrenaline level surge, make a sober mind going insane and make a saint change into a ghost. And there are also many minus side efects which here I am not bothered to innumerate.


I want to wage a vivid description and then give a basic analysis around this fact. When I watch a pornography film, I will feel hushed, my body will get a little mad, my senseation is trifle disoriented, my mood is unstablized, my natural impulse will be exeggerated, my mouth will keep open wide, my nose will hardly discern delicate smells, my nostril maybe is enlarged, my stomach will feel empty, my spirit will get excited, my brain will be saturated with vulgar scenes, my moral standard will be temporarily undervalued……etc.


Then I have to say, watching beautiful women is viciously pleasing, it’s a dangerous idea and dirty activity under the surface of a devastating sexuality, but this sexuality is always altered, transformed and veiled into a sick shrouding which makes a girl even more inticingly attractive. This attraction is more fatal than mere nude body. So somebody invented those opaque dressing conceptional ideas, like bikini, like stocking, like some recently increasingly popular women’s underwear, these are all invented by man, at least this is my belief. These stuff are the output the modern civilization notably represented by that well-known sexual emamcipation movement. In the eyes of the traditionalist that is a miserable degradation of mankind, that’s shame, a human historical tragedy, an irrevocable process, a culture decay, a relentless discarding of abnegational ideas, and most of all it’s the beginning of animalization of human kind.


Let’s have a retrospective view of our history, not too long ago, just trace back only 500 years or something. 500 years ago the puritans risked their life to carry out a expedition feat. They held a transatlantic voyage and made their arrival at the new continent. The puritans are all highly religious people, they sustained a life style of frugality and universal refraining of desires. They were the real sanits, so it’s perfectly natural that under their development america can become the most powerful nation in the world. But like many other civilizations it will inevitably embark upon a vicious circle. Here my stream of consciouness encountered some handicaps and I don’t know what to continue my representation, and I will cease here.



本人原创，还有第二部分。